Contemplation

I was watching an Adyashanti DVD this evening titled Turnaround of the Heart. If you're thinking of buying any of his DVDs, this is a really good one. It's my favorite so far. A light went on in my head, and I suddenly realized that I need to paint as if no one was ever going to see my paintings -- as if no one was watching. I need to let go of my conditioning and all expectations, and paint what is authentic inside of me.

Is that even possible? What would my painting look like without any conditioning -- without the things I have learned about what makes a "good painting," and without other people's thoughts and ideas? Would that be painting like a child? If I could let go of all conditioning, would my paintings become childlike?